` me. just me *

150305 ; thanksforbeingsosweeet

was in a gd mood till like twenty minutes ago. my mum is so RAHHH. im so pissed. so disappointed. feel so lousy. feel like my words are like of no substance. i assume too much. i think i understand my mum. but actually i dont. i really dont.

hw does it feel like to like wake up happy. then be shut off by one word. you want to argue. but you dont want to seem disrespectful. is it because im a girl? isit because i shld have woken up like at 5am to clean the whole house before i can like take one step out of the house? do i have to complete the whole syllabus?

RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

okayy. going to blog the happy stuff. hopefully it might cheer me up.

had a super great day yesterday. since morning till night. class gathering. chamber. chamber dinner. wil sent me home. it was just fun fun and more fun. i really enjoyed myself. i tried to cheer pple up. i tried to laugh more. i tried to smile. i tried to be more understanding. ~~tried~~ im still trying.

im like this defective thingy trying to refine and improve. but it's far from being successful. uh huh.

i dont like staying at home anymore. used to really love home-cooked meals. but im feeling so played out. this is so shit.

//who's the true star ?

xxx
; SMILE